Post #1157

I have not adapted well to my return to America from Ecuador. In fact I resent and hate the life I have up here, I've created nothing of note value or consequence here. "Esau despised his birthright" does this apply to me, I was born in a place half the world dreams of attending yet it is my own personal hell and a gigantic open air prison. I feel more disconnected to the politics people and my goals here than I ever have in my life. This isn't my country, the America that was mine was gone long before I was here. "But the third world is corrupt" yeah so is the first world, the big difference is the common man can partake of the bribes in the third world. What should I do, I must move, but how? I want to have legal paperwork, but I'm a poor bastard without a large income history. Life can be strange.