Post #896

After a long time iim Writting something It isn't going to be formal just my life experience and observation Single-Focal trade-off By Prince When I was around mid teenage I really liked what others think Some people whom I found special called it "I love interfering in others life" Some called it "why to know what others think" But I called it a new perception/perspective I once asked a mild mentally challenged person with blindness Vansh what do you feel about you can't see? He replied Abdul, What does seeing means? I was broken at that point, all I was thinking was just "oh no this is so miserable" Once I told my very good friend "Menstruation does not make you mature, your actions do" And she didn't say anything but then I learnt later how hard a life of a woman is especially for those whose family is kind of the opposition for them I saw a yt short which stated that Russian population is declining And the comment section was filthy and disgusting Then another yt short that how Russians treat Indians And suddenly so many same accounts that were speaking from the mouth of sewers now they were saying Russia loves India and vice versa I've seen people crying for not getting their dream job, desired woman/man, a specific event in their life and etc but when those similar things happen they just find something different to complain about As Chris Williamson Qouted "A cool insight that the more you complain The less accurate your model of reality So complaining is you saying The world isn't delivering to me that which i anticipated or expected or desired from it Which is also you saying I don't understand how the world works until it comes and meets me in reality." I have heard something that has broken my heart and I don't know what to say I don't know how to process How to say I'm not fine Someone who wouldn't criticise me, who would make me feel I exist, heard and valued and someone who would actually help me to get out of it instead of "have patience, this is life" lazy replies It's weird how so many times we get depressed while dismissing that we have something so many people don't Being able to see, hear and so many other stuff. Or as the qoute goes Blinded by a leaf.... You'll miss the tree..... Blinded by a tree..... You'll miss the whole forest I know it's sometimes hard Maybe you procrastinated whole year Maybe you did a bad thing this year Maybe life tested you extremely brutally Maybe you lost someone you loved But the life isn't fair.... If it was whatever you wanted you would have. You don't actually know what's actually good for you Something that seem bad might actually be good and something that seems good might actually be bad We all are tired of that hollowness in the wall in ourselves, little or much, no matter how many layers of wallpapers we put that hollowness finds its way Through someone's words, actions, events, or just.... memories Some of our demons never vanish they just get weak by our repetitions , they are our Horcruxes they never die they only work with you when you give them what they want... As Abdul, I asked Allam to ask the Horcrux why does not it goes away it replied You die I die Love yourself and take care of yourself and stay away from negativity The last philosophy of 2025 "If you always stare the people above than you... You'll feel behind If you always stare the people lower than you... You'll lose the will to rise. The basic fundamentals of growth are... Channeling energy in a positive way and Balance" Finally the year is almost over No crush, no love life just a guy with great friends, exploring life and living it...