Post #1072

What makes all of this worse is how many friends I have lost over things people assumed or things others said about me instead of ever asking me directly. People were so quick to believe a version of me that was never true. No conversation. No checking. Just distance and silence. It is hard watching people slowly drift away over stuff you did not even do. Knowing that rumours or assumptions carried more weight than my actual actions hurts more than I want to admit. Especially when I know I try to do things right and be respectful. I think that is why it sticks with me. Because it is not just one situation. It keeps happening. I do everything I can to be careful and considerate, but once people decide something about you, it feels like nothing you say matters anymore. Losing friends like that is exhausting. There is nothing to resolve or explain because no one asks. They just quietly leave. And you are left realising that some people never really knew you in the first place. I am not angry. Just tired. Tired of being misunderstood. Tired of defending myself against things that were never true. And tired of losing people over assumptions that could have been avoided with a simple conversation.