Post #7523

When you died When you died, it was like that frozen mountain of emotional outbursts inside me melted all at once Nobody expected it when I stared screaming and sobbing at the funeral My older brother tried to take me outside And I punched him in the jaw (I apologized later, of course) You'd hardly recognize me now, I think It's a lot harder for me to stare blankly now, and take things Because I keep remembering you saying "Stand up for yourself! You deserve better, mi amor." And you're not here, anymore, to stand up for me Or our kids I don't know how to describe it, exactly What changed the moment you left this Earth But it's like I was blue one moment, and red the next Hard as ice before I melted into a hurricane I was a mess for a year or two, I think Before I managed to get everything under control again But even now, I'm not like I was I'm still calm, and rational, and think before I speak But if anything or anyone threatens our children or their happiness I know I have to be the one to protect them And as anyone who's gone mountain climbing knows The serene snow-covered peaks that look so tranquil from a distance Are the deadliest By Aknier @LanguageStuff