Post #833

lgbt, queer, trans, society, gender expression "it was march, 2015 i had just come out online as transgender. or more specifically "gender queer!" «i also would have been wearing a sweater» to my shock, hundreds of people showed their approval it was lovely! with such support i decided to learn what presenting as female was all about «yeah!» i bought makeup lipstick nail polish new clothes! in my bedroom i put it all together. ...and? «im a monster» i fell under attack by a special cocktail of depression and internalized transphobia you know the story... lots of showers lethargy anger isolation anguish it was like that for months luckily i have smart friends «you should take baby steps» «my friend is slowly building up to presenting female» «she tried doing it all at once but found it was overwhelming» first of all. duh? i had always thought of gender transition as a massive undertaking. but in breaking it down into bite sized pieces... i could explore on my own terms «i think i'll do my nails today!» feminism was a huge help not only could i confidently reject certain expectations? « dont see why i have to wear mascara to feel pretty» but i began to draw strenght from what i realized was a feminine side that was exclusive to me «i love how i look in lipstick though!» «so why should i shave? i dont give a shit! woo!» the results were fascinating what i learned was some folk present entirely one way other harmonize some transition full throttle «i woke up like this!» others dont «almost. not yet.» and its fine if you dont! its not a race «love yourself!»" src src (fixed, archive.org)