Post #5618

it's my birthday... and not one soul cares I'm on mobile and ugly crying so this is gonna be messy. Do . Not. Ever. Make someone a priority while you are only their option. Today is my birthday. I am a stay at home/disabled mom of 2 boys and been married for 10 years. My boys are 10 and 8. Old enough to do things on their own. Have their own thoughts. Plans. Feelings. But all they've seen is me give up EVERYTHING and devote my every waking thought to their needs desires wants. I anticipate everything before they even ask. I do everything to make every little thing as special as possible. For all 3 of them. It's all they know. I have lost my entire identity to being a wife and mom. I gave up my career health and friends being the default parent to a son who's behavior is so poor he can't last a week in a daycare/after school program. While my husband goes out at least once a week. My husband gets head at least weekly because I like my loved ones to feel... loved. It's his preferred sexual interaction. But I have to nag and beg for sex or even for him to kiss me while I masterbate. I'm telling you this so you can get an idea of how little my happiness or needs are thought of. And no, not even on my birthday will he think of me in any capacity I spend 90 percent of my day alone, isolated in a small town with no friends or family because it's where his work is amd where my boys school is. I put their needs above mine. And every year I set the bar lower because every year they never do anything. Today? All I asked was to not be alone. I don't care if I have to do all the chores and parenting. I just don't want to be alone. I woke my husband up st 5 6 amd 7. Then gave up. My kids got up at 7. I started making a giant homemade feast of a breakfast. By myself. They went and turned on cartoons without so much of a hug or saying happy birthday while my husband sleeps in for the 2nd day in a row. They ate their breakfast while I bawled in the kitchen. I'm upstairs. No one has said a thing snd even if they do now, it's too little too late. Its not just my birthday when it's convenient for you. Society told me being a wife and mother would make me happy. But it's taken every bit of self worth... confidence... love... identity... energy amd given nothing back www.reddit.com/r/TwoXChromosomes/comments/xtpvsp/its_my_birthday_and_not_one_soul_cares/source