Radar's Stash 🔞

What makes all of this worse is how many friends I have lost over things people assumed or things others said about me instead of ever asking me directly. People were so quick to believe a version of me that was never true. No conversation. No checking. Just distance and silence. It is hard watching people slowly drift away over stuff you did not even do. Knowing that rumours or assumptions carried more weight than my actual actions hurts more than I want to admit. Especially when I know I try to do things right and be respectful. I think that is why it sticks with me. Because it is not just one situation. It keeps happening. I do everything I can to be careful and considerate, but once people decide something about you, it feels like nothing you say matters anymore. Losing friends like that is exhausting. There is nothing to resolve or explain because no one asks. They just quietly leave. And you are left realising that some people never really knew you in the first place. I am not angry. Just tired. Tired of being misunderstood. Tired of defending myself against things that were never true. And tired of losing people over assumptions that could have been avoided with a simple conversation.

I am still affected by how quickly people jumped on me over the Andre animation I posted. No questions. No checking. Just straight to assuming the worst, like it was some gotcha moment. What hurts is that I did everything right. I asked for consent before posting. I was careful. I tried to do things properly. None of that mattered once people decided who I was in their heads. It is exhausting constantly being treated like I have bad intentions, when the reality is I put a lot of thought and care into what I do. Instead of asking, people assume. Instead of talking, they accuse. I do not know why it has stuck with me so much, but it has. Probably because it is not the first time. It happens more than people realise, and it wears you down when you are always having to defend yourself against things you never did. I just wish people would ask before assuming the worst. That alone would change a lot.

https://fixupx.com/BlopFry/status/2010126421943886260

Haha... you could as I'm a little tied up at the moment 😳 Art By LunLun

Another big one >:3

A 1:42 cv animation that syncs to the beat... oh no

ORB

I think he's trying to tell me something 🤔

ASK ME ANYTHING (i'm bored)