Sabertoof's Arts!

Good morning everyone! I have an #update for yall that I've been meaning to give. For the next month or two, I will be working on moving to a new home and settling in. I need to take a break from queue work as I make this large transition. For the time being, I am mostly taking care of my health and managing my stress so I don't land in the hospital again, like I did recently. Over the past few years, I've gotten very sick and weak. This has resulted in not being able to fulfill my list and work needs. It's largely due to how stressful my current living situation is and traumatic events, grief, and my mental health deteriorating with time. I feel the worst I've ever felt. Truly, it is a nightmare and struggle each day. I wouldn't wish what I've been through on anyone to be honest. There's just so much that it's hard to even summarize, and a lot of it is too heavy for conversation. Regardless, I do intend to get my queue done in time. That has been a very large source of stress. I'm thinking that after I get settled into my new residence, I will reach back out to all of the folks on my list and ask if they'd prefer to wait or if I should issue a refund. This process will take a little time too, but I want to do right by yall who have supported me throughout the years and it's the best course of action I can think of at the moment. Then, once I have asked everyone, I will sort my list into groups. Folks who want a refund, and then folks who are okay with waiting. Refunds will go out as soon as I have the means to. Currently it's hard to even survive, so that process will also take time. Until then, I'm going to make sure everything is in order to move and settle in. I'll be surrounded by people who love me for who I am instead of hate me. I expect my health to improve just with that alone, so I am pretty hopeful for the future. If there's any questions or concerns, never hesitate to reach out. I must again reassure everyone that all work has been tracked and is accounted for, so I haven't forgotten. I'm eager for the future and for less stress!! I love yall! Thank you for reading. -Toofs

Hey hey, everyone! I'm here with a more in-depth #update regarding everything. I'm feeling relatively okay as of this moment, so I'm gonna take an opportunity to clear some things up and fill yall in. I try to broadly update as I go on Bluesky, but I feel like that format isn't really good for giving an in-depth update, especially with how much I need to cover. Lemme organize my thoughts n get'em written down. Health: My physical health is very abysmal right now, admittedly. I'm tired most days, nap at least once or twice a day, and feel sick/dizzy very often. I have a mass on the side of my neck that's about the size of a marble, and I'm unsure of what exactly it is. I plan to get this looked at soon and hopefully removed. I fear that it's causing some of my sickness, but that's also unclear. As for my mental health - not very okay in that department, either. I'm sure it's been rather obvious with my radio silence on a lot of fronts and overall lack of productivity. I'm pretty sure I reached a breaking point, and burnout is a thing I'm dealing with also. I'm dealing with a lot of grief (Stevie's passing really hurt), stress, and trauma. I wish to apologize to friends n folks who wish to talk to me more often. I want to reach back out to yall, and I will when I can. 🥺 I've been having to focus heavily on just surviving. I have never considered my mortality as much as I have going through all of this - so I hope everyone understands. It's been really scary. Art: I feel like I've hit a bit of a wall with my art. Between the burnout and symptoms I've been experiencing w my mental/physical health, it's been hard to focus and sustain much mental effort. I'm going at a very, very slow pace, but I promise that all will be done when I can. ❤️ I wish to take my time with my art and find that spark again. I've lost it recently, and it's hard to really put your all into something when you don't feel that spark. I still intend to do two commissions per week, though. I plan to resume that course of action by this upcoming Monday, after I've had some time to relax and prepare for the future. I feel like two per weeks is reasonable with all things considered! A few final things! I know this all sounds doom n gloom, but... there's actually something extremely promising on the horizon for my partner and I. I want to tell yall soon, when some things are more set in stone. But, I'm 95% sure this is happening, and it'll be really good for the both of us. 😭 All-in-all... I'm still feeling really bad n sick, but things are gonna be looking up soon enough. I'll be reaching out n working on my messages here over the next while, along with art that I need to do. ❤️ I'll keep yall updated, too. I will most likely update mostly on my Bluesky, so keep an eye out! Thank you to everyone who has joined me in this journey so far. I look forward to the future!! 🥹 - Toofs

Hey, everyone! Just taking a moment to write an #update while I can and it's quiet here. My partner and I have a lot going on right now in terms of housing instability, food scarcity, and the whole nine, honestly. It's been rough here, and will be for a while until we find a solution to our housing issue. I'm thankful for all the support we've been given, as well as the incredible amount of patience, too. I must humbly ask for additional patience as we see how this all pans out over the next while. I am very sorry that I am slow - but with this amount of stress on my partner and I's bodies and minds, it's been difficult just doing the basic things like eating and generally surviving. We've been facing the possibility of homelessness, so art hasn't been on the forefront of my mind. However, I don't want my art to take a long time to get out to yall if I can help it. I just hope that everyone on my list can rest assured that I'm not leaving or going anywhere, even if I get quiet for a bit. I promise I'm just dealing with a lot, and my ability to socialize has been almost completely diminished as well. I save a lot of my energy for making sure we get through each day, and then if I can, I usually will sit down to draw or respond to what I can. I feel like I've also been taking some measures to not add to my list. I can't afford to at this rate, besides small and quick YCH's or adopts. Art is my only income right now, and will be for probably a long time, at least. It's all I really have to lean on financially, so please understand if I do lil arts to make up for some funds as they go. 🙏Right now, I'm just working on a little personal art of Bailey (see above) so that I can regain some of my drive back. (Plus, yall deserve a lil fun treat.) 🐗 If you have any questions, concerns, about your commission, do not hesitate to let me know or get in contact with me. I hope you've all been well and are staying safe. I'll talk soon again. Thank you for understanding and being so supportive! - Toofs

Hey everyone! A bit of an #update here. Just wanted to peek in and say that I've been dealing w some fresh grief wrt Stevie's passing on Friday. It was a lot to handle, still is. Going to be for a while since I process grief slowly. I just wanted to come by and also remind yall that I am committed to getting commissions done - however it will definitely take a while since I'm backlogged and dealing with an unsure time, an abusive environment and people in my immediate life, etc. For now, though, I definitely need to put most of my focus on myself and my partner. I am chipping away at commissions very slowly and when I feel up to it, though. I thank you for being so patient, understanding, and caring. It's been difficult to say the least, but I believe if I get everything in order some more, it'll be okay. Thank you for understanding. ^^ - Toofs

Hey, yall. Just a bit of an #update here - wanted to keep you in the loop while I navigate a particularly difficult time. Tldr: Stevie isn't doing well, my health isn't good, and some other really personal things. Stevie's health has been on the decline for at least a week now - him not eating much, not even interacting to my pets very much or cuddles. I am very saddened to realize his quality of life isn't the best right now, and am struggling with the thought that it may be infact his Time. Gonna see tomorrow at the vet what his prognosis looks like, but I can already tell it's not going to be good news. My health has also been an issue. Between my left eye, heart and anxiety, and my left foot hurting 24/7, I am grappling with a lot even just with myself. My motivation for art right now is good - it's just that I've had to put my focus, and priority, on making sure my partner, Stevie, and I will be okay. I really appreciate the patience with everything, though. I feel bad for not updating sooner- but it's been a busy rollercoaster of emotions and pain. 😭 I'm going to be okay eventually- I just need to humbly and gently ask for additional patience as this happens. Thank you all very much for the kindness and even very kind gestures to help us. It means the world to my partner, myself, and my pets. I'll try to be a bit more active, work on commissions quietly and at my own pace, but it's going to be rough here for at least a bit as I pursue help for all of us. - Toofs

Hi everyone! I have an important #update regarding commissions, and especially my backlog! I'm mostly going to reiterate what I posted on my Bluesky to here, with perhaps some additional thoughts included. Please continue reading if you're expecting art from me. ^^ So, I've been thinking a lot in my free time and wracking my brain a bit on how to tackle my list. I have a backlog as well as a current queue list that I need to do. Right now, my gameplan is to prioritize and emphasize getting work done much older art in my backlog, first and foremost. I just really don't want anyone to wait longer than they already have there - so hopefully this is understandable. Next, I'll work on more recent commissions once most of the older ones have been finished. Sometime soon, and on works I haven't started yet, I will reach out to clients to discuss wait times and what you'd prefer to do with your commission, as it stands with current prospects and everything else going on. After I've talked to everyone, I will make a public queue! I wanted to do this for a long time. This will give a lot of reassurance to everyone, I think, and I want only to be transparent and committed to what I've set out to do for yall. TLDR: - Backlog first - Recent commissions - Reach out to clients and establish due dates, timelines, and/or refunds - Create and post a public queue Keep in mind I'm dealing with a damaging amount of stress right now, so this process alone will take a little time to establish. In the meantime, I'll be slowly chipping away at some commissions that I've had in the works for a while. Some final notes: I'm working on some adopts lately (see my last post!) to sustain myself and hopefully, not take on any additional commissions while this process goes on. I am really hoping they do well! That's what I'm thinking of doing right now, and while I know it's not going to make everyone happy, it seems to be the best course of action I can come up with for now. If you have any input, I'll gladly listen, too! Thank you. I hope it's understandable and reasonable! - Toofs ❤️

Hey everyone, I've got an #update for yall! So, yesterday I received my new tablet after my old one stopped functioning. While I do have access to working right now, I do still need some time to get everything here settled and art will unfortunately remain slow-going. My living situation isn't very ideal, and it's frankly not safe for my partner and I, so we are mostly focusing on staying safe. Part of me also doesn't want to give out artwork that isn't my best. I don't feel very good about my art right now, too, because I haven't been feeling good. Being under constant and heavy stress has been doing a number on my body and mind. I really don't want to put out work I'm not personally happy with too, because everyone deserves my best. Fortunately, my moving fund has been fully funded, and I am working out the details of getting into a new place as soon as possible. This will allow me to be able to thrive and live comfortably away from daily abuse. All-in-all, this is a very unsure time, and I must ask for patience and understanding once more. 🙏 I will still work on my art and commissions, but it will just be very, very slow. I have full intentions to get everything finished when I can, but I have a lot going against me right now that I can't control. I just ask you bear with me. As things go on, I will update here and on my Bluesky as always. Thank you for your understanding and patience. I will do my best. 💙 -Toofs!

Tablet #update: I found a compatible, unused, spare cord that I could try to use to determine if that was the issue. Unfortunately, it didn't work, and looks like the port is the issue on the tablet. This means I have to get a new one when possible. I'm definitely not in the market for anything fancy, just something that works and will hopefully last a while. I don't want to ask for direct donations since I already have a Kofi goal going for my move, but if you want to help still, my art pack is available for purchase! I hope I can raise enough to get back to art soon. Here is the link to the art pack: https://payhip.com/b/eEIdp (NSFW link ahead!) Thank you for reading. ;w; -Toofs.

Important, brief #update: My tablet stopped working today. I'm frustrated, but working on a solution. I ordered a new cord for it (it's a Wacom PTK-440) so hopefully that will be the solution, but with the way it's behaving and how old it is, it may just be on it's way out officially. I'm out of work for at least a couple of days while it arrives in the mail, and even longer if I need to buy a whole new tablet. I can't afford a new tablet right now, though, so I'll likely need to ask for help. I am so sorry to ask for help so much. Thank you for reading, understanding, listening, everything. - Toofs.

Hey, everyone! Toofs here. I wanted to write a quick #update here just in case anyone is out of the loop over the last bit. Currently I'm in a very precarious living situation. I need to pause commissions (or work on them very, very slowly) while I stay safe. I'll explain. Tldr: my husband and I live with my parents. We are both disabled, chronically ill trans men, and though I am able to work on art as a way to get by, its been getting more and more difficult to deal with my health issues as well as the neglect and abuse from my mother. It's been taking a heavy toll on me for a long time and, even with trying to do the best I can, I have not been able to successfully move on my own and escape. We are working on looking at local resources to help us, but have been coming up short since we're both transmen and emotional neglect and abuse isn't taken as seriously as it should be. Still, we're trying. I contacted a distant family member as well about this, because no one outside of my immediate family is aware. My mother keeps things under tight wraps so she doesn't get in trouble. It was a big step, and I am really scared and fear for my safety if word gets out about it. However, I do trust this family member and hopefully things will be okay. So, right now, I'm just trying to stay safe, calm my heart and anxiety, and figure out our course of action. As for commissions - they are going to have to wait a little longer, just until things are a bit calmer, safer, and stable health-wise and with my living situation. I apologize for the consistent, heavy delay, but please understand that this is really serious matter. I intend to get everyone finished up and arts delivered as soon as I am able to. I have everyone's commissions tracked and sorted behind-the-scenes, so please do not worry if you can. However, if you are wanting a personal update or anything, don't hesitate to reach out. I'll get back to you as soon as I can. Thank you all so much for your incredible patience and kindness. I hope that things will be brighter for me in the future. I have a lot of exciting things to show you all. I really, really do. But I just can't thrive here. I will do my best to take care of myself and my husband, and get ourselves in a better place. 💙🥹 I love yall. Take care of yourselves and each other, and stay safe. - Toofs

Good morning, everyone! I'm happy to report that my meds are working well so far. I check back in with my doctor in a couple of weeks to discuss where to go from here, if we need to make any adjustments, etc, but we'll see how all of that goes. As far as art and everything, I'm feeling pretty good for the moment and am planning on making the most of it. I have a lot to do still, considering my backlog and current commissions, so I'm going to be pretty busy for a while as I make progress there. I appreciate the patience throughout this! Oh, and kind of random, but I didn't know you could share my art that I post here... around Telegram? How does that even work? REGARDLESS, I'm so thankful for the shares! I think it helps get the word out about this channel some more, and that helps *so* much. Ever since I stopped using Twitter, I've not really invested much else time or energy to other places other than Bluesky. I really should invest some more time into Telegram, I think, going forward. ^^ Anyway - HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! I hope that even if you don't have a Valentine, you take this day to celebrate and love yourself. Be kind to yourself. ❤️ Spend it with those that care about you. If you do have a Valentine, yay! Enjoy your time together. I honestly don't have any particular plans aside from work and relaxing with some games, so :3 I'll be around working on art as usual. Thank you all so much for your kindness and patience! - Toofs! ❤️#update

Hi everyone! I've got a recent #update for yall! Long time no chat - and I apologize for the long radio silence here. There's been a lot going on behind the scenes admittedly, but I have some good news to report this evening. :) I just got in touch with my doctor about the neuropsych testing I had in December, and got my results! Turns out I am most definitely moderately ADHD, autistic, and agoraphobic. It feels good to have these diagnoses on paper finally so that doctors can further assist me with treatments. I'm very eager to feel better. I'm hoping that in the next month I'll have a new treatment plan that may significantly help me with daily life and work, so I'm eager to see how it all shapes up. Of course, I will keep everyone updated as time and things develop. As for my hiatus and current ongoing commissions, I'm not comfortable quite yet to call off my hiatus until I receive an adequate treatment plan for my ADHD. I imagine that this will take a bit more time as I will need to follow up with doctors, attend appointments, and experiment with treatments, but I am happy to say that I'm nearing the end of the big hiatus. Thank you to everyone on my list who has been so patient with me during this challenging time. It has been really hard on me as well. I worry very much about everything all the time, but I hope that I can make the wait worth it. For now, I have been having to take on work as needed to cover bills, medications, food, etc, to stay afloat, and hope that's been okay. If you've been on my queue list for a long time, please never hesitate to reach out and we can always negotiate a game plan if patience is wearing thin. I am committed to making sure everyone's work gets done. ^^ That's all I have for now I think! I'm going to try to post here more often. I've just been going through A Time and hope that's understandable. Please never hesitate to reach out if you need anything. I appreciate everyone's support! Much love from Toofs. 🥹💙