scribbled diary

Look from a distance and you'll see the arrogance. Look from the surface and you'll adore the love I have for myself. Come a little closer and you'll see the people I had to let go of to reach where I'm today.

you taught me everything that I never ever wanted to learn about love.

"how will I know if it's true love??" - your heart will break first.

stuck in a generation where loyalty is just a tattoo. love is just a social media post. happiness is a myth. lying has become the new normal. and being fake is a lifestyle.

I could drive like this for eternity 🤭

as long as I didn't do anything wrong. i don't care if we never speak again.

You were happy before them. You were good. You were enough. And you will be after them. You just have to remember that life needs to go on and nothing can stop you from growing. That's all.

Life is so much easier when you keep your eyes on your own lane and don't give a shit about what people think of you.

How to love someone with Anxiety issues? -Someone with anxiety is inclined to assume everyone is going to leave. So much so, sometimes they might be the ones to ruin a relationship. The truth is they battle something they can’t control and there is a sense of insecurity within themselves when it comes to relationships. 1. Remember they’re worth fighting for. - It might be hard sometimes, there might be stupid fights of scenarios they’ve created in their own head. But more than anything, they’re worth fighting for, if you can fight with them through this, it’ll come back to you ten folds. 2. The phrase, ‘It’s okay,’ can never be used enough. -It’s two words. Two words that stop every thought running through their head. And honestly, you can never say it enough. 3. Sometimes you just have to listen. -They’re going to play out these situations in their mind and jump from point A to point B, sometimes you’re not even going to know how they got there, best thing u can do is let them go off on their tangent even if there’s no solution. 4. Never tell them, ‘'you’re overreacting'’. -To you, it might seem irrational. But to them whatever they open up to you about, it’s something that actually keeps them up at night. So just take it as best you can. 5. They probably won’t sleep through the night. -Whether it takes them a while to fall asleep or stay asleep, you’ll be woken up by them at 3 am as they lay there wide awake. Just hold them close and the comfort in your presence might be enough to get them back to sleep. 6. Remember it’s not that they don’t trust you. They’re just scared. -You say it’s an ex and in their mind, they jump to cheating. You say it’s a friend and in their mind, it’s someone trying to break you two up. It’s not you and your relationship that isn’t trusted.. it’s every worse case scenario automatically playing out in their head and they hate themselves for it. 7. Don’t be mad if they send a double text. -You might turn your phone on, to four texts. If you can remember it’s not that they’re trying to be annoying. They care. They care too much and they know it makes them look bad. 8. Answering texts timely does help more than you know. -You’ve probably noticed they answer embarrassingly fast and they know not everyone is like them but it helps when people understand it. It helps when you say ‘I can’t talk now this is why I’ll text you later.’ …Silence kills anyone with anxiety. It creates problems in their mind that aren’t even there. It ends in apologies that aren’t even needed. And it adds a layer of stress to their life they wish they could control. 9. Get them medical help when needed. SInce youre no certified professional, getting them medical help isnt something to be ashamed about. When anxiety gets out of hand medical/psychological help must be taken. 10. Once trust is gained they’ll love you unbelievably hard. Someone with anxiety, if there is something they’re good at it’s love. If there’s something they’re strong in, it’s their ability to show you how much they adore and appreciate you. It might take them a while…to trust you but once they do their capacity to love you will fill you in ways, you didn’t know you were empty or even missing something." PS -ik its tough to deal with people having anxiety issues but we cannot leave them alone. we need to be a helping hand and rescue them :) it costs nothing but patience and love. @thelostdiary

Calm your mind and ask yourself "what are my goals? What do I want?". Not what's popular, not what's easy, not what's trending on social media. BUT What YOU want. And then direct all your energy, emotions, thoughts and actions onto it. No matter what, let nothing or nobody distract you. And you'll attract it.

in another life, i hope you stay.

Showing your emotions to people is like bleeding next to a shark.