scribbled diary

cause i never learned how to give a little; for if love was a raindrop, i'd create tsunamis.

People often mistake self love as being selfish. No! self love is to love yourself with a sense to care for others. Thinking about your well being, about your future, about your happiness, about your life and hurting others in the meantime is being selfish. Being selfless is the first step you do to love yourself. Try not hurting others, try loving others selflessly and then see how your own soul starts loving you :)

though my soul may set in darkness, it will always rise in perfect light. i have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the nights anymore.

i remember this one time when she was laughing with her friends. from across a crowded bar, all i could see was the joy on her face and everything was quiet except for how she looked at me

Nothing saddens and scares me like the thought that I can become ugly to someone who once thought all the stars were in my eyes

One of the worst things is being made to feel like you're taken for granted. Where, you check up on them constantly, you're always messaging them, you're readily available to them and you change your plans to suit their needs and then they become too comfortable. They think it's okay to give you less time because you won't mind. They think it's fine if they take hours to reply because you're going to reply straightaway anyway. They think that you're always going to be available to them, so they don't need to change their plans especially for you. You're partly to blame for this because you give so much of yourself to the other person that they start to think it's okay to take more, want more and be given more from you. But you need to take this control back if you want to protect yourself. You can't keep giving and giving without complaining about not being given anything in return. Yes, love and friendship are not relationships that are based on a 'give and take system. But if you're the one who constantly put your all into this love/friendship and get nothing in return, then the other person clearly doesn't love or value you enough to invest just as much into you. One of the worst things is being made to feel like you're not going anywhere' so they can do whatever they want. Because that is wrong. Tell them when you feel like you're not being treated right. And stop putting your all into others, just remember —you don't have to fight so hard to be loved and you deserve just as much respect, love, care and time as you - give to others. ^@TheLostDiary

And you will always be too much for some people. Too kind. Too sensitive. Too friendly. Too giving. Too hopeful. Too positive. Too passionate. Too insecure. Too scared. Too caring. Too scared. Too soft. Too much of this and too much of that. Too much of every single thing that makes you the person that you are. Don't change yourself because you are 'too much' for the people who are 'too little'. Just remember that your feelings will make no sense to the people who are shallow. To the people who put boundaries where there should be none.

do you have those days too when you are doing everything but still it isn't enough, when u are moving but not reaching anywhere. when nothing is okay but in front of everyone you have to pretend it's okay because you don't want your thoughts to turn your heart into something ugly

Promise me not to hide yourself when you're in pain. It's heartbreaking that we laughed together but you cried alone!

I know you are trying your best. To move on. To grow. To be patient with yourself and with the world. And I just want to let you know that I am proud of you. That I admire the way you wake up. Everyday. And grab all the bullshit by the balls and let it know you are not done.

If you want to block someone, block their ability to trigger you.

as I grew older, I learned that the key to surviving the day isn't positivity, it's acceptance. accepting that not all days are good and happy, you have bad days, you make mistakes, you fail, you mess up, everything's not going to fall into place and that's okay.