scribbled diary

Conversation is everything. Sometimes that's all u need to pull u out of the darkness. Someone who's willing to listen. Someone who's willing to stay, no matter how late it gets. Deep ppl w/ deep hearts & deep thoughts can sometimes save ur life. Can sometimes save u from urself @thelostdiary ━━━━━━━━━

grief isn't as soft as it's english pronunciation on our tongue. grief. does a lot more to us. it blurs. it pierces. it aches. it haunts. it devastates. it silences & sometimes it ends @thelostdiary ━━━━━━━━━

You know, sometimes the hardest part is giving yourself the green light to move forward, especially when the weight of the past still lingers. It's like having a key to a door you're scared to open. But here's the thing: moving on is a journey that's meant to be taken at your own pace, a pace that suits your heart's readiness. And you might be surprised, but it's okay to start healing even if those words you long for, those words of apology, never come your way. It's like walking through a path shrouded in uncertainty, hoping for an explanation that might never arrive. Healing doesn't always need the closure we imagine; it's about finding closure within yourself. The truth is, we often hold onto the hope that they'll see the pain they've caused and acknowledge it with an apology. But sometimes, that closure doesn't come. It's a silent ache that resonates deeply within, like an unfinished melody. Yet, even in the absence of their words of remorse, you have the power to write your own ending. You have the strength to heal, to piece your heart back together, and to step forward into a future you're sculpting for yourself. So, yes, it hurts. It stings to not hear the apology you deserve, the closure you crave. But remember, you're not defined by their actions or their lack of words. Your healing journey is your own, and it's about finding the strength to mend and grow, even when the path ahead is uncertain and the apologies remain unspoken. @thelostdiary💕 ━━━━━━━━━

i will not wait for you to regret losing me. does the sun wait for the earth to regret turning? does the moon wait for the night to regret ending? the sun remains the sun, & the moon remains the moon. i will remain myself with or without your acknowledgement of my value. @thelostdiary💕 ━━━━━━━━━

only karma i wish for people who did me wrong is to let them meet themselves in someone else. that's it. that's all. @thelostdiary ━━━━━━━━━

and if someday the uncertainty of this world becomes too overwhelming, i hope you remember that i am right here to hold your hand & put your head on my shoulder and tell you we got this @thelostdiary ━━━━━━━━━

i literally have no energy left in me to hate anyone. i have no space in my heart to be salty & hold grudges. i either love you, wish you well or you don't exist for me. simple as that. @thelostdiary ━━━━━━━━━

because everyone wants to be loved the way they love, understood the way they understand, and to be held the way they hold @thelostdiary ━━━━━━━━━

do you still remember how painful that night was? how tired your eyes and heart were? do you still remember how you almost ran out of your breath while you were crying and how you were trying to stop the noise you could make? do you still remember how difficult it was for you? do you still remember that heart ache? IF YES, then please grab your self-respect and do not go back to the toxic people and situations that made you go through shit. ever again. @thelostdiary ━━━━━━━━━

the number of hours we spent together was actually not enough. please linger near the door uncomfortably instead of leaving. please mistakenly leave your scarf in my room & come back later for it @thelostdiary ━━━━━━━━━

sometimes i wonder how life would've been if i had the chance to really live instead of healing from certain things that weren't my fault @thelostdiary ━━━━━━━━━

There's so much more to life than finding someone who would want you, or being sad over someone who wouldn't. There's a lot of wonderful time to be spent discovering yourself without hoping someone will fall in love with you along the way, and it doesn't need to be painful or empty. You need to fill yourself up with love. Not anyone else. Become a whole being on your own. Go on adventures, fall asleep in the woods with friends, wander around the city at night, sit in a coffee shop on your own, scribble your thoughts in a diary, cook your favourite dishes, dress up for yourself, build your career, make money, smile a lot, help others. Do all things with love, but don't romanticize life like you can't survive without anyone. Live for yourself and be happy on your own. It isn't any less beautiful. @thelostdiary ━━━━━━━━━