scribbled diary

One of the most loving things you can do for yourself is to give yourself permission to not always have your shit together. This life will constantly oscillate between seasons of order and disorder. The question is: can you still love yourself when your mess is showing?

You deserve an '' I'll put you first and nothing else matters'' kind of love. A ''lift your feet off the ground every time that we hug'' kind of love. A ''lets talk until we fall asleep'' kind of love. You deserve a ''its okay I'll be there'' kind of love. A ''hold your hand tight when I'm driving'' kind of love. A ''we can argue but I won't let you sleep without saying goodnight'' kind of love. You deserve a ''here's the medicine, a cup of tea and a hug cause you're sick'' kind of love. A ''we'll work through everything together'' kind of love. An '' I'll never give up on you'' kind of love. You deserve a ''happens once in a lifetime but changes your life forever'' kind of love. you deserve the world 💌

don’t do anything you wouldn’t want me doing in a friendship or a relationship. i’ll always match your respect, but i’ll also top your disrespect. don’t play with me.

getting your life together requires a level of honesty you can’t even imagine. there’s nothing easy about realizing you are the one that’s been holding you back this whole time. the truth can be hard to face, but ultimately it's the only way to move forward.

The tongue really is so powerful. Speak your blessings into existence. Be consistent, work hard, pray, and manifest. And then watch your dreams turn into reality.

Adult friendships are hard. Everyone is busy & life happens. I’ve learned you gotta let people know when you’re thinking about them. A simple “thinking of you, hope all is well” really goes a long way.

being cool with someone who did your friend dirty or wrong because they “did nothing to you personally”, is the fakest thing ever to me. if you come for my friends you coming for me too. like it’s no serious beef but it also ain’t buddy buddy either, we just not cool

i am quick to tell a mf, "bye have a nice life", cause i ain’t doing none of that begging, pleading, asking for the bare minimum, communication, respect, honesty, or effort. i will not fight for someone to love or be friends with me.

Fortunately, I have reached that phase in my life where I don’t question how things unfold for me anymore. No matter how difficult it is now to accept it, deep in my heart I know that God is planning something great for me.

take a deep breath. you will be alright. i understand that your anxiety can sometimes immobilize you and fill you with doubt, fear, and uncertainty. however, it's important to remind yourself that you've come a long way and you've overcome many difficult times before. you're still here and that's a testament to your strength and resilience. don't forget who you are and the positive impact you have on the people who love and need you. it may be difficult to see it when anxiety takes hold, but you are stronger and more capable than you give yourself credit for. remember, you are loved and valued. you are an important part of this world and you have so much to offer. so take a moment to breathe and center yourself. you've got this.

I'm VERY obsessed with my personal space & alone time, so if I wanna spend time & talk to you, you’re very special to me..

disagreements are fine. disrespect is not. distance is fine. disloyalty is not.